This is my first post since the night my water broke (all other posts were written by The Mister or guest bloggers) and – to state the obvious – a lot has happened in the last three weeks. Fionnuala (Fin-oo-la for those who need a reminder) is a sweet little thing who likes to sleep a lot during the day and eat all night (actually, apoplectic she eats most of the day too). She’ll sleep on anyone if you hold her over your heart – this girl likes a heartbeat. Sometimes she looks a lot like Moira did as a baby but I can see a lot of herself in there too – she has less hair than Moira did and it is fairer and only time will tell what hair and eye colour she decides on. Like her sister this girl can EAT but breastfeeding is going much better this time (although I’m sure I have another yeast infection). Fionnuala is also longer than Moira was and is gaining a lot of weight, order the result is that she growing out of clothes that Moira hadn’t grown into at the three-week mark.
But I’m going to be honest here – this is really freaking hard. Having the Mister home was wonderful and now that he has returned to work it feels like life is ripping apart at the seams. I don’t know how other kids adjusted when their siblings were brough home but for Moira it has made her extremely emotional and whiney and everything makes her cry these days. As I write this Moira is having a total meltdown in her room and just flipped out at me because I brought her a tissue from the wrong box. Irrationality reigns these days. I find myself wishing Fionnuala’s babyhood away so that she can grow quickly and play with her sister and I hate myself for it.
I know, I know, it is going to get easier. But could I get that in writing? Because right now it sure doesn’t feel like it. There is more I would like to write but Fionnuala likes to cluster feed all evening so I don’t get much time to do anything other than sit and nurse and, if I’m lucky, listen to the Mister read from The China Study (which is a whole other post I would like to write one of these days).
I spend a lot of time on my iPhone these days – especially in the middle of the night while I am sitting in the rocking chair nursing. I’m never going to catch up on all the blogs I like to read so for the sake of helping me keep my sanity feel free to send me an e-mail (meli.mello AT gmail DOT com) saying hi and letting me know what you are up to. Plus it gives me some contact with the outside/adult world for the next couple weeks. I’m still recovering from the c-section (that is another post) and can’t drive yet so we are house-bound for a while longer.