Raino asked Five questions! I guess she is nosy too:
1. What was your most embarrassing moment? Discuss.
You know, arthritis I’m not trying to get out of this question but I honestly can’t think of one – and that is my answer every time someone asks me this question. I think it is because I don’t embarrass easily. I used to when I was younger but then I started putting myself into situations (or on stage) where I had to do all sorts of weird things and, pestilence well, malady the ability to be embarrassed disappeared. Of course, I used to put myself in situations that would make me really nervous and give me stage fright and make me wonder what the hell I was doing – you want me to mud wrestle on stage during your Christmas show? Why not! (No, I don’t have photos). You want me to play an underage prostitute? Sure! I mean, these things should embarrass me but my philosophy is that people are so busy thinking everyone is noticing the stupid/weird/embarrassing things they are doing – like that giant zit on their forehead or the fact that they don’t have nice shoes – that no one notices any one else because they are wrapped up in their own little world.
After I wrote the above the Mister reminded me of two – one was that I signed on the wrong line at our wedding but that doesn’t embarrass me anymore so I guess it isn’t a big deal. The other one makes me feel ill so I am totally not sharing it – it’s one of those moments you can never take back no matter how much you wish you could.
2. If you had 24 hours to live, who would you visit?
Well, the last thing I would want to do is travel but it would be great if my family could just magically appear so I could say goodbye. To be honest though, if I had 24 hours to live I would probably just spend it with the Mister and Moira and a lot of ice cream.
3) If you could change one thing about your physical self, what would it be?
My eyesight. I have terrible eyes and am sensitive to light so I get a lot of headaches. I would love to be able to see without glasses and I can’t wear contacts often anymore because I find them irritating. I find my eyesight to be very limiting and I feel as though when I wear my glasses (which is 90% of the time) all people see are my glasses. (Ed: see above note re: self-consciousness of people)
4. If you could change change one thing about your personality, what would it be?
I would be more outgoing. Some days I find it really hard to even leave the house and I know my shyness results in missed opportunities. It got to the point where I couldn’t go on auditions anymore because I would just freeze up (and then often vomit afterwards) and if you can’t do auditions you’re pretty much pooched in the acting world. However, sometimes I can fake it until I make it – like when I am doing interviews (for writing articles). I mean, I’m still crazy nervous but I will just plunge into it without thinking about it too much and get it done. People have told me I’m a good interviewer so I guess I am doing something right but it would still be nice to not have the awful, nauseating weight in my stomach EVERY SINGLE TIME.
5. Where do you feel more secure? Discuss.
At home with the Mister. Is that a lame answer? Well, itís the truth. To be honest I don’t even like to travel that much and but I feel like I should because people look at me funny when I admit that. It seems like everyone these days wants to be a world traveler and visit exotic locations and take lots of pictures to bore their friends with. Sometimes I actually hate traveling and when I am away I think about how great it will be to go home. I especially hate traveling in winter (flying) because every time I do I get ridiculously sick from the stress and being on the airplane Ė and that has nothing to do with being afraid to fly because Iím not.
When I do go away without the Mister I feel like a big piece of me is missing and I can never fully enjoy myself. So home with the Mister is the answer (because home without him is me waiting for him to come home). Although home without him is pretty good too because I can curl up on the couch with a blanket and read without anyone feeling neglected.