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Re-wiring my brain

In love with the winter sun.

My goal for this month is to post two blogs a week on Monday and Thursday and I have already fallen down on that goal. But my other goal is to tell myself – repeatedly – that my goals don’t have to be all-or-nothing. I am very much an all-or-nothing person and I’m trying to re-wire my brain and teach myself that each day is a day to start again. So even if I don’t know what to write about OR if it is Tuesday instead of Monday I am going to post a blog.

Warning. Today’s blog post is rambley and talks about parking again.

Yesterday I had an appointment with my oncologist for 10:10 in the morning. We arrived at 9:55 and paid for two hours of parking. I saw the doctor at 12:10. This is pretty standard. The oncology department was busy this morning and we knew there would be a delay (there always is). I don’t really blame the oncologist for this either – there are just SO MANY of us with cancer these days. Anyway. I stayed around afterwards for some X-Rays and left shortly after 1pm. One of the things I noticed while I was walking around the waiting room was that the hospital provides all these “free” programs and support groups for people going through cancer but I wonder how many people don’t go to them because they don’t want to pay for parking? I know that is always one of my deciding factors when it comes to any activity.

I did tell my oncologist that I need to be fully fit and healthy by mid-June because we have bought five plane tickets for Ireland for a month starting on the 14th of June and I want to enjoy this trip as much as possible. My oncologist said she often thinks about how terribly sick I was when we first met (I refer to it as “actively dying”) and what a difference she sees in me now. Then she said this: “I can’t cure you but I can try and give you as much quality of life for as long as possible.” Which is exactly what I am trying to do. I’m glad we are on the same page.

Today I was supposed to volunteer for an all-day field trip with Fionnuala’s class. But due to back and hip pain I cancelled. I think I was being overly ambitious by hoping that I could survive a day like that but if I’m not overly ambitious I’ll never get anything accomplished in this life, right? Fionnuala was very disappointed though and that’s just one more thing they are going to remember when I am gone.

I leave tomorrow for a quick trip to Ottawa for the funeral of my godfather whom I affectionately called Uncle Bunny. It’s a bit of a family reunion and I am more excited than I probably have the right to be since it is for a funeral – but I will take adventures where I can get them these days. You know what else I’m excited for? Four hours of uninterrupted reading time on the plane BY MYSELF! I’ve already downloading Neil Gaiman’s The Ocean At The End of the Lane on audio since it is next month’s pick for book club and now I just need to nail down a knitting project I can do on the plane for maximum child-free enjoyment. Plus the two other books I am currently reading. The possibilities are endless.

Trying to get outside every day.

The Nine R’s of November

Why nine R’s? Well, mostly because it sounds good with the minor alliteration going on. Also, nine is my number if ever I were to have a number. I’ve always liked the number nine. Another reason is that I started singing in a choir recently – I will talk about that in a later post but singing in a choir… Read more →

Sunday night cupcake

Ah… bliss. I just got out of a super hot bath where I spent 40 minutes reading Carrie Snyder‘s latest book The Juliet Stories. (Isn’t the title of her blog the best?) Now I’m going to eat a cupcake and snuggle with the Mister while working on my sock. It’s a good night after a very long day with two… Read more →

Reverberating 2010

Some of you may have heard of Reverb10 – it is a way to reflect on this year and manifest what’s next. It is also a series of prompts that gives you something to think on and write about as you reflect on the past year and publicly (and perhaps naively) air your wishes for the coming year. They ask… Read more →

Weekend plans

“It’s going to be another busy busy day,” Moira inevitably says at some point every evening when we are putting her to bed. I guess when you are 2.5 years old no matter what the next day holds there are always adventures to be had and every day is, indeed, busy busy. This weekend does prove to be busy busy… Read more →

The way things are

Ingredients for bliss when you are 2+1/3: – Polka Dot Pajamas – Dirt Moira discovered that you can take the Polar Zookeeper Duplo animal slide apart and turn it into.. shoes!  Those jammies totally kill me too. Yodeler’s daughter: Fionnuala looks like she should be wearing knickers and a cow bell. Man, population health nap time is boring. Nap time… Read more →

Rock Band Status for the Family

While Melanie is recovering, oncology here is a brief post from the Mr. regarding the new addition to the family. Name: Fionnuala Irene (pronounced Fin-oo-la) Birth Weight: 7 lbs 1 oz (exactly the same as mom and older sister) Born on: 8-something am on the 18th of August (18/8/10 – a date I can remember! 18-8=10).  Water broke Monday evening,… Read more →